I went out with prince charming yesterday... Met him at Yio Chu Kang MRT.. I felt like crying but I held back my tears.. By the time we reached Marina Square, tears ran down like waterfall. I just can't leave him. Seriously, of all the guys I have dated, he outstands them all. He asked me, "Do you really love me?" I said yes.. Then, he asked, "Why do you love me?" and "We got to know each other only last week, how can you fall for me?" I told him about my past. I hope he understood what I meant. He's just so special.

We may not know each other well now but I am determine that I can learn about him. I have to win his heart back.. All I have with me is integrity, patience and trust. I'm just being myself. Hopefully he is also learning about me.. We are still in the relationship, just that we are taking it slow. It was my mistake. If I hadn't done it, our relationship will be sailing smoothly already... I will keep on praying that my relationship with him will last.. Forever.... I will never stop praying.. Wherever I am.. Everything happens for a reason... Even if I'm crying in my heart, nobody knows... I may be crying because I'm happy that he has decided to give me a chance. I swear I will never do that. I seriously hate to do that.. Because I have pride. I respect myself. But I may be crying because I'm upset with myself for what I have done... Now, I'm going to start afresh with him...

Yesterday, we end up cuddling each other. I felt safe when I'm with him.. That's why I love him so much... It's so cosy to have him around... He went berserk yesterday.. I got to see the crazy side of him.. He cracked me up! He teased me from Marina Square till he sent me home.. 'Penat badan I tau...' Haha... I'm really going to take this really slowly... I mean super slow... Damn super slow... I have to go.. Lesson's starting... Ciao...

p/s. I love you from the bottom of my heart.. That's why I'm taking it slow...

I don't know what's going to happened to our relationship. I'm really lost for words.. I have been crying since last night. Couldn't control the tears when the person who said that he loves you suddenly turned fickled minded. It's all about the incident that we went through on our first date.. Baby, I know you are shocked but u could at least tell me that you didn't like it what I did. We are into this relationship for only 4 days and things turned for the worse for me. This is the second time I'm hurt. God really test me whether I'm patient with all these incident keep coming to me.

"Aku insaf, ya Allah! Aku insaf.. Aku sujud kepadaMu. Aku memohon kepadaMu. Berikanlah aku peluang sekali lagi untuk bersama dengan Saiful.. Aku ingin dia membimbingku kerana aku dapat rasakan yang dia boleh menjaga aku... Ku pohon kepadaMu, ya Allah! Tenangkanlah fikiranku, tenangkanlah hatiku yang sering risaukan keadaan Saiful... Aku sangat berharap Kau dapat memberiku peluang itu... Amin... Itu yang aku harapkan..." I'm not a bitch... I know I'm not... I hope you are reading this, b... So that you know how I feel...

I met prince charming yesterday at Yio Chu Kang MRT Station around 5.15pm. From there, we went straight for Marina Square to have our dinner. He didn't eat for the whole afternoon, I think. Because he told me that he was very hungry.Haha! Poor thing, baby... He had nasi lemak and I had mee rebus for dinner. In the end I couldn't finish my food. He happily finished his meal. He looked so sweet when he's eating. That's what I notice about him. While eating, we shared the memories we had during our primary school days.

We went to Esplanade in the evening to watch a performance but we were early there. So we sat down near the river, admiring the scenery. Suddenly he wrapped his arms around me. It was the best feeling I have ever had. I have never felt that kind of vibe from a guy. I could feel that he really loves me. We talked and watched Russell Peters on my laptop. It was after the show that he said to me, "Today is the 25th. Nice date right? So I want to ask you, will you be my girlfriend?" I knew it was coming. Of course I told him Yes! He looked at me and kissed me.. We missed the show but I didn't care.

We went to Central after that. That was my first time going to Central. Everyone was talking about it and I don't want to feel left out. So I asked him to take me there. We went home around 11pm yesterday. Long day but it was satisfying.. Thanks baby..

I didn't know that he is a left hander like me. It was purely by coincidence.. We have a lot of things in common. So it's not surprising that I'm with him now.. Haha! God, I miss his kiss.. I have to go. I have lessons now. I will blog soon. Ciao!

I will be going out with that special someone deep in my heart.. I can't wait to see him! I've been having sleepless nights because I keep on thinking about him. Since the first day we met, I knew he had set his eyes on me.. Instincts say so.. We were sticking like glue.. Till today, he still messages me till late.. We didn't want to go to bed even though we have lessons the next morning.. Maybe we just love each other too much? Haha.. I have been missing him since Saturday.. I just love his presence.. I love you and I love you.. I don't think I can stop saying that..

To my prince charming, I think God has answered my prayers.. I got someone who is a gentleman.. That's what I wanted all my life.. You light up my life. Of all the people I have dated, you just outshine them all.. I really love you.. Even if you have flaws, you are a perfect boyfriend in my eyes and in my heart..

Went out with my primary school schoolmates on Saturday! All of them looked different! Had the best day of my life... We went to nine houses and ended up at home around 12 am.. Lepak giler... But seriously it was fun. We shared all the memories.. Bitter, sweet, sad, happy all came together... Joked around till we cry. I even had gastritis and tonsilitis after that. But it was worth it. I have always wanted a reunion with my primary school schoolmates. It took me 4 years to do this.. That's because of the commitments that I had 4 years ago. 2 funny incident happened when we meet on that day. I saw this particular guy standing beside me. I gave him a weird look and asked, "Who are you?" He gave me that "u-don't-know-me?!" look and said, "Saiful la.." I didn't recognise Saiful at all. He used to be the nerd in school. He changed totally.. He is every girl's dream guy. Amongst all the guys in the group, he is the gentleman.. That's what I think.

The joke of that day was the cookie jar at Tuty's house. If you've been to Ikea, you may have seen a big glass jar. She had each type of cookie in the big jar! Anwar made fun of it! He was laughing his ass off while saying, "Ni betol-betol peh bahase sak! Korang pegi lantak ah sampai habis!" Namira burst out laughing like a horse(That's what Iskandar said, ok.. Not me!)! I laughed because of the joke and the way Namira laughes! You should listen to her laughter! I should have recorded that! Wish I could turn back the time and live that day forever.. All the laughter... I will miss those most...

I think there's something wrong with me.. I decided to keep my feelings as a secret to someone.. When the time is right, I will tell you... It's too early if I tell you now.. I had butterflies in my stomach when I talked to you.. I knew why but I always denied it. Sholud I give that someone a chance? I'm hoping that cupid can help me in this situation...

It's been more than a month. And now I'm back! Haha! I want to wish all Muslims Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri! Do forgive me for all my wrong doings.. Kalau aku terkasar bahase, tersinggungkan hati korang, maafkan aku ye..Hehe..

Anyways, I got to contact my primary school friends! I was on cloud nine! I miss them so much! I love u guys! It's been 4 long years you know! We will be meeting this Saturday for Hari Raya.. Hopefully most of them can make it..

This semester is going to be a tough one for me. Almost all the modules are tough. I seriously need help... God, save me.. HAHA! I know I will survive! I have to go now.. Class is starting soon.. I will blog tomorrow if I have the time ya! Ciao!