I don't know what's going to happened to our relationship. I'm really lost for words.. I have been crying since last night. Couldn't control the tears when the person who said that he loves you suddenly turned fickled minded. It's all about the incident that we went through on our first date.. Baby, I know you are shocked but u could at least tell me that you didn't like it what I did. We are into this relationship for only 4 days and things turned for the worse for me. This is the second time I'm hurt. God really test me whether I'm patient with all these incident keep coming to me.

"Aku insaf, ya Allah! Aku insaf.. Aku sujud kepadaMu. Aku memohon kepadaMu. Berikanlah aku peluang sekali lagi untuk bersama dengan Saiful.. Aku ingin dia membimbingku kerana aku dapat rasakan yang dia boleh menjaga aku... Ku pohon kepadaMu, ya Allah! Tenangkanlah fikiranku, tenangkanlah hatiku yang sering risaukan keadaan Saiful... Aku sangat berharap Kau dapat memberiku peluang itu... Amin... Itu yang aku harapkan..." I'm not a bitch... I know I'm not... I hope you are reading this, b... So that you know how I feel...