Is this the price that I have to pay for being head over heels in love with someone? Being stupid, dumb, idiot? In front of someone whom you don't know whether he has feelings for u or not?! What the fuck am I doing? He was looking at you damn it!!

Shit. I don't know how to face this. I don't know why I suddenly get super emotional just now. He was walking right beside me and I pretended not to see him. Shahirah, wake up!! It's a new day!! Start afresh!! Go and have fun! But I am feeling much like a stalker! I feel like I am! Argh!! Gosh.. I don't know why.. Say to yourself, take it slow.. But what if it's fast? Damn it! Damn it! Damn it! Control. Control. Control. I felt so loved by him last night. I just can't get it out of my head! It keeps on playing! The smell!! The voice! The stare!! OMG!! This is killing me..

OMG.. I seriously can't forget about it. Everything. Hoping that it will happen again but not too soon!! It will be going fast if it happens today. The atmosphere was just so tender, so erotic, so romantic, so nice. The smell, the touch.. I swear to God it is so difficult to have someone so complete. I'm incomplete. It just hit me. Never once did I ever taste something like this before. I swear to God, I will make his life happy if I have the chance to. Oh, move on Shahirah! He doesn't have feelings for you..