Why? I'm starting to have deep feelings for someone. Why? Even when he treats me like shit. I will stand firm on the ground, and wait patiently. People may say, "Move on.. There are other guys out there." But I don't want to budge. I don't want to. I believe in patience and 1 day, it will pay off. I don't care if it hurts a million times. I'm meant to face all this before I can taste the sweetness of love. It's cutting me deeply, into my veins. Into my heart. Into my soul. I left him because the feelings for that someone grows each and every day, since the day we saw each other. I buried that feeling, thinking that it will fade away. But it crawls out from the grave of my heart.

I don't even think he understands this. There's no communication. Just silence. SILENCE. Silent crush. Silent love. Love? Was love even existing to him? There are no answers to it. Or I'm just too late to win him back. Should I just bury that feeling back into my heart again and not open my heart to him? I'm losing hope. I think I should just close my heart for him. It's too painful to handle. I can't take it anymore.