I'm still doing soul searching.. But it's getting better and better.. And I can breathe better nowadays.. It was somewhat very frightening for me this week. Maybe I was under a lot of pressure about my problem that it lead to me having chest pain on Wednesday. I was having dinner with my family.

I had a snack in my right hand at that point in time. Then I suddenly lose my grip on the snack. I mean, how heavy can a snack weigh. Then my mum was teasing me, " U can't even hold the snack properly." Stright away, after that, I felt that sharp pain on my heart. The pain was undescribeable. It happened so fast. When I felt the pain, my head felt super light, like I was on the verge of collapsing. I could see my panicked mum beside me, asking me if I was ok. There was a moment of silence. I told her I felt the pain. This is like, the 3rd or 4th time, I think. I think I should go for a check-up.

Stress really has taken its toll on me. My heart just can't handle the pressure. What I'm afraid of is the worse. I'm not ready to go.. Not so soon. I have so many things to accomplish. I will just pray for the best. For now, I just want to find a job, so that at least I have the money to stand by, just in case I have any emergencies. Nobody knows for sure what it will be..