You know, its really hard for sum1 to get back on track wen he/she is hvin emotional breakdown. And they try to lead a normal life like the rest of the people around them but they falter. They keep on falling, coz no one lend a helping hand to help them get up on their feet. All they do is just criticise and criticise.. until a handful of ppl whom they meet along the way help them get back on track. And what's even weird is dat, they just met. They are amongst the people who give that opportunity for those who suffer, to take the step slowly.

This is wat im experiencing nw. Strangers who turned into frens, help me.. Advise me.. Including the people close to me.. I admit that I was lost after the break up. I made the most regrettable decision. It was so abrupt. I rushed myself. I was stubborn. I keep on doin the same mistake: think wit only the heart. I was so into him. I was in denial of the negative tings dat i do. I was so engrossed to be wit him dat i didnt realise dat MY world was falling down. I feel ashamed of myself for lovin sum1 else n not love myself. Chasing for wat i tink, is a want. But it all comes down to sadness and not happiness. Im glad that i realise it nw. Im so thankful to God even when i didnt pray to Him. And yet, He still takes care of me. The guilt in me for nt praying to Him.. Only You noe hw i feel, Allah..

Im determined to change myself. I wanna open a new chapter. Officially.

And i wanna erase my feelings 4 him. Sometimes, its better to be just the way we are. We both hv shown our true colors. So its enuf 4 me to judge u 4 who u realli are. Guess we end it badly. Both of us leave a bad impression of each other. Me being oh so sensitive and u being oh so harsh. Its good that we both see d mistakes dat we made nw than later.

Its gonna take me months or maybe years to change into a better person.. Its not an overnight ting.. BUT i will try to make a difference soon.