Loneliness. Dats wat i feel rite nw. 1 by 1, ppl i knew are driftin apart from me. Im sad but I cnt do anitin abt it. Juz hv 2 put on a smile n gv them a gd farewell. Cnt believe dat its so fast. Frens come n go juz like dat. Im nt realli dat emotional abt dis coz we cn meet up anitime. Bt its abt wen we cn meet up wen we go our separate ways. Its sumtin dat i ponder on 2dae.
Its like evrydae, after the exams, i wake up, i will sit on my bed, tinkin of wat's happenin 4 me. And then i will face the 4 walls with a toilet bowl nearby and a sink with water flowing from d tap. Brush my teeth n stand under d showers, tinkin of wat i shud do next. Shampoo and soap myself and stand under the showers again and look at the soap run down on my skin. Then i will dry myself up, put on my clothes n face the 4 walls in my bedroom. Then ther will b dis sound that will cover my ears. So lonely.. No message tones. No nudge. Juz silence. So bored of wat i go tru after d exams.
I miss those messages dat i gt frm my gfs, my classmates.. I miss the laughter dat we share. All the stupid tings we used to do. All the silly tings we do on each other. The unity dat we had. All for 1, 1 for all. Will i still c dat wen sch reopens? I juz wonder..
Went out to meet sum1 new on Wednesday. Had sumtin like a quick date. And then I was alone. Then I called my buddy 2 come meet me since I haven't been seeing him 4 a few weeks due 2 the exams. Had my first Subway sandwich. Kental to the max. LOL.. I had chicken teriyaki on a 6-inch honey oat, with lettuce and green pepper with mustard and red wine vinaigrette. I dunno wat the hell dat red wine tingy is bt i just feel like tryin it. =) Uber nice despite d mustard overpowering the good taste of the sandwich. I wanna have subway again!! Im so addicted to it!! OOO BOY..
Here's the topic for today: A GIRL DATING SEVERAL GUYS.
Suddenly felt like toking abt my new life nw. Im not bragging abt aniting, but ever since I have long hair, tings change around me. Im sooooo not used to getting attention from guys. LOL.. I admit, I love it. But there are consequences. I end up breaking ppl's heart. I become damn indecisive most of the time. Imagine 2-3 guys asking you out at the same time. OMG. I rejected going out wit all of them. But.. There's only 1 guy that, I dunno, made me want to meet him. Its like Im under a spell. LOL.. My weakness?? Fallin for guys easily. Evry1 who noes me noes dat dat is my weakness. But I hv it all under control. There's sumtin interesting abt dis new guy. I hvnt fall 4 him. Not yet. Too fast 2 go into a relationship anw. Its addictive 2 hear him evry nite. But sadly, after the meet, we dun realli tok dat much. No chats. Just texting. Hmm.. Then I feel dumb. Haha.. No idea why bt dat was wat I felt.
Sum1 is oso silent 4 the whole dae 2dae. I dunno if he was feeling disappointed of me nt being able 2 spend time with him. Haiz.. Bt wateva it is, Im realli sory coz I cnt accompany u 2dae. I went out shopping with my mum.
The dating world is dangerous. Must realli take care of evry1's feelings. Moral of the story: Do not be greedy and date evry1 who is interested in you. Be realistic. Know ur limits. =) Dats wat I learn wen Im dating. I realise dat tiny mistake which will eventually becomes huge if I continue further.
Enuf said. Im already sleepy. Nites humans! Hv a gd rest coz its FRIDAY! Woo! Peace. Nites! Muackz!!
Went to Harry's place to take my watch. I 4gt 2 take it from his desk d other dae. Haha.. Belo me. Watched 300. Had the best morning dis week. LOL.. Wonder wats in store after dis.. Haha.. Sooooooooooooo HAAAPPPYYY. U made my day dear. Even if we are unofficial. And for d first time, he cooked maggi for me. LOL.. Im touched by that. Realli. Thx a lot. Then ard 2.50pm, Kevin and Hafiz arrived at his place to play soccer. I was suppose to study juz now. But i was alone. I end up following the guys. I watched them played soccer from 4 till 6pm. Quite tiring to watch them even wen i already slept at his house earlier.
My heart feels realli uneasy. I have been procrastinating since Tuesday. Didn't study much. Im so dead. Gdness.. Now I feel like i caught a flu. Maybe from d late night sleep for d past few daes.. Sumtin is bothering my mind. D ting is, i dunno where to strt. Argh! Im so so gonna freak out at d last minute. Luckily d exam strts at 4pm. For all three papers. Well, i guess i better continue from where i have stopped yst. LOL.. To my fellow peeps, JIA YOU!!! THREE PAPERS. WORK UR ASS OUT!!! DEN WE CN RELAX FOR A WEEK.. =]
ps. I luv u. I miss u. I luv u. I miss u. I luv u. I miss u. I luv u. I miss u. I luv u. I miss u. I luv u. I miss u. I luv u. I miss u. I luv u. I miss u.
