It's 2.14am on my watch. For the past few days, I have been feeling so down. It has got nothing to do with me getting eliminated from the competition. I just realised that people are drifting away from me. Ok, maybe it's just me keeping a distance from everyone.

It's just so hard to explain. I feel like crying out loud but who wants to listen to my cries. Frankly speaking, I still can't forget someone. Every night, my mind keeps on playing all the sweet memories that I had with Chris Brown. Only some will know who I am refering to. I didn't ask for all that. I mean, I didn't ask my mind to recall all those memories back. If possible, I want to forget about him.. It's just so hard for me to move on. I know he has. It's obvious. He's happy and I'm not. I know it's so stupid of me to yearn for him still. He left me when I needed him.

Every night I cry. What a foolish bitch to cry over this. But still, I just can't move on. I love him too much. I tried to fall for other guys but it's of no use. Why can't I move on easily like the rest of the people do? I'm sick and tired of breaking down everyday.