I know I gotta share this info with you people out there who wanna groom themselves. Haha!! Some people may find it personal but I don't give a fuck about it. =P

I went to Fabulous Tan yesterday at Bugis. If a person goes there, he/she either go there for a tanning session, waxing session or teeth whitening session. I went there for a waxing session. =D Brazilian waxing. I know, I know.. Sounds saucy.. Oh crap.. Well, the experience was unforgettable, not because of the ambience of the place but it's because of what I went through.

I was given a towel and went to the washroom to rinse myself before the session started. The room was painted black and there was a bed for me to lay on. I saw the hot wax in the designated processing device. I laid on the bed while young staff took off the towel and directed me to set my legs slightly apart. First, she put powder on the area. Then she put the hot wax. There are 2 types of wax that she used for specific areas. The 'mild' wax was used with a paper I think. The first time she pulled the paper, it was quite painful but still bearable. The worse part was the inner part of the area. She used hard wax. The hard wax doesn't need the paper. She waxed the left part first. The moment the hard wax was 'ripped' off, I see stars. From the position that my legs were supposed to be, I folded my legs up. LOL!! It's damn painful ok!!! Moreover I waxed the most sensitive area of my body. Just bear with the pain. Haha.. I thought I was done after a few strips of wax. Then she asked me to turn to my back. I was like, "Huh?" LOL.. She waxed my butt. This part was funny. You know your butt is quite sensitive to touch. What more just a tap on it! I was giggling all the way when she tried to dry up the hard wax. It's very ticklish! I can't control it. I tried to relax my butt muscles but I think I failed that. Hahaha.. After half an hour, I was done and on the go.


It was my first time doing that. I have been wanting to wax for a long time but I didn't have enough money. I only paid 35 bucks for it. Worth the pain, time and money. Hehe.. Once you're done with Brazilian waxing, you cannot swim for like 2-3 days. Brazilian waxing, anyone? =P

Today, I had a late night chat with Hendra. I haven't been meeting him for a while. I'm thankful that someone kicked some sense in me about trying not to cry about my past. It's a wake up call. He shared so many things about the difference in what a boy and a man are thinking in their heads. Something that I will instill in me. I have to open my eyes wider to see the reality which I don't. I become more analytical about the people who are interested in me. There are good and bad points to this. But at least I'm using my head to think and see for myself who deserves to be with me.

To Mohd Helmy Buhary.. It's been a month or so since we talked. And every passing day, my feelings grow for you.. I love you so much. So so much.. I regret about what had happened before. And I did promise you that I won't do that anymore because I love you. And I will never stop saying that. And I can't wait to meet you. You are a guy who has a lot of patience in me and I'm thankful for that. I owe you, baby.. =))))))))))

I don't know what I was doing. I just let go someone who loves me. I'm just too confused. Too rushed. Too desperate to have someone to love me. But when that happened, I got lost. My heart just went blank. I feel so guilty. Guilty as ever. I shouldn't have let him go when he is so in love with me. I don't want to make any mistakes. But I just did that. Did I just lose the love of my life? God, help me.. I'm so weak.. Help me get back on track.. Please..

I was browsing through my blog and took a glimpse of my tagboard. You guys go and check it out. I don't know who did all these. Haha.. They have nothing better to do. And the email address belongs to one of my anugerette's. Obviously someone is trying to sabo me. Recently, I had a conversation with this guy. Take a look.

(8:00 PM) anything whateve: fuyo u're hot
(8:00 PM) SĦєЯΛ™ Love: thx
(8:01 PM)*unicef SĦєЯΛ™ Love is a game.. Tell me if love is true.. has changed his/her name to "*unicef SĦєЯΛ™ Love me sincerely. "
(8:01 PM) anything whateve: can we fling
(8:02 PM) SĦєЯΛ™ Love: i duwan
(8:02 PM) anything whateve: can la
(8:03 PM) anything whateve: i upah can
(8:03 PM) SĦєЯΛ™ Love: excuse me, for ur info, im nt a whore
(8:03 PM) anything whateve: u're hot sey
(8:04 PM) SĦєЯΛ™ Love: secondly, go get a life
(8:04 PM) anything whateve: fuck u slut
(8:04 PM) SĦєЯΛ™ Love: wats wit all dis upah2..
(8:04 PM)anything whatever is now Offline

My God.. I'm trying not to make any assumptions but I never had enemies. Some people uh..

To the person who spammed my tagboard, I forgive you for whatever you said. It's not nice doing all these. If I ever hurt your feelings, from the bottom of my heart, I'm sorry. My words may be harsh, but think again, your language is far worse than mine. Even now, I'm being very nice to you. I'm not the kind who would get worked up because of this.