Today, I had a late night chat with Hendra. I haven't been meeting him for a while. I'm thankful that someone kicked some sense in me about trying not to cry about my past. It's a wake up call. He shared so many things about the difference in what a boy and a man are thinking in their heads. Something that I will instill in me. I have to open my eyes wider to see the reality which I don't. I become more analytical about the people who are interested in me. There are good and bad points to this. But at least I'm using my head to think and see for myself who deserves to be with me.